its only been a few weeks since u left but how come it feels like months and years. i miss ur smiles, ur barks...ur pressence. nothing can describe the bond between us. you have been the most wonderful baby in our family. you brought us laughter and brighten our lives. we are very proud and grateful to have you.

 


 

love is still in the air... though you wont be galloping to us sending your love
with "i love u" tightly gripped in ur mouth this year...
the sweetness that you had showered us will last through our lifetime...
we love u too, baby...

memo...
our dear memory of polo, our baby...

lyrics translated from song My Memory

My Memory
At that moment I remembered it all
When I see those memories they seem so small..
You're far away in a place that I can't reach
I can't wait for these words of love to be said

I really was to blame
Will I ever get to meet you again?
I can't even imagine that
I still love you and now I'll confess that to you
I wanna love you forever
It's not too late
Be with me forever

For a long time you've been in my heart
Much time passes and still you're far away...

our little terminator... you always got it your way during this time of the year... ^^
this time of the year is never the same without you being around.
went to the pet farm today... which reminded us when our eyes met yours for the very 1st time...
oh ya, the pet seller commented you looked so nice... to us, u were 10 times more beautiful...

little 'elephany' moved us. though he is unlike you, he does remind us of that little polo,
as we still remembered, how you once bounced & toppled like nobody's business when we brought you home.
that was when we named you Polo, the mint sweet, which is white, round and rolls...

we are not trying to forget you baby... you are irreplaceable in our hearts.
we will be celebrating & continuing the love we all had for you, by extending it...
our family just gets bigger... 1st there was fitfit, and then you came into our lives...

dajie suggested the name for little 'elephany' to be one that signifies our heartfelt memories of you.
i'm still thinking... P.J? polo junior? memo? boogie (from your song)? let ah min chey chey think okay?

I was waken by the drums of lion dance today, turning my head around but you were not beside me. I remembered every year during this time, you will be surprised by the drums, unsure of what is going on downstairs...staring at me blankly and then continue to laze with me on the bed, back-against-back. This is the quietest Chinese New Year, without u around, everything is so dull and liveless. We didn't open up the packet of Bak Guah cos we know u are not here to share with us. Everywhere around the house, anything i do reminds me of u.

Now, i can only stare at the bed, imagine how u would choose a comfortable spot by squeezing between the pillows. Recalling the feeling how i used to hold u and scratch ur head and chin, massaging ur shoulders and tummy...imagining you were there wif me exploring the fridge and waiting for me to come out from the toilet...Please let me remember all these...time heals the pain...but time should not let these memories fade.

Its the eve of CNY, we have just finished our reunion dinner. Were u here with us? We've prepared for u a bowl of rice, chicken, pork, brocolli, fishball, carrots and bak choy, and of cos chrysanthemum tea. We miss you alot baby.

      
 

Sunday is baby's favourite day. The day where Ah Hui Jie Jie will bring u for a walk around the park and give u a bath. Sometimes we also tried to clean ur ears and cut ur nails but u rejected. Then we will laze on the bed and wrestle a little. U will smell so nice and look so fluffy, like a polar bear. In the later afternoon, u will get a bowl of ur veggies from Dajie...ur favourite munchies.

yea... true enough... baby is gone...
in a way we can never hold you again.
hear you...
feel your warmth...
smell you...

but... somehow it feels unreal... as everything about you is so vivid...

reality? which is which?
in the state of a mind? or in the state of our memory?

if memory relate with time... as one will say... time heals...
as time goes by, does the pain go away?
or is it such that, we will be too use to the pain so it does not hurt that much?

no one bugs me to rest early during late nights now.
only to realise that, the comfort you once shared with me
pulled me through days and months and years...
...of exhaustion, confusion and dejection..
replacing all with your affection & presence...

oh ya... was humming your song that night in my heart when doc said "sorry" to me...
trying my luck then, hoping you'll hear it anyhow...

you put your right hand in
you take your right hand out
you put your right hand in
and you shake it all about...

you do the boogie woogie
and turn yourself around... 

We helped u put on your favourite outfit to keep u warm and placed u in your resting ground. A great spot where you will always be with us. Papa cried...he didn't get to see u and hold u on that evening. But now, we are glad that u have returned home.

meal:
boiled shredded chix drums
shredded pork ribs
hei ji
fish
char siew

...with rice & carrots, brocolli


dessert:
walnut cake... butter cake... waffle... bread...

beverage:
chrysanthemum (not so sweet)

tidbits:
xiao bao (packet cookies)
uncooked pak choy
uncooked lettuce

to shred:
crumbled envelops
toilet-roll canister
self-discovered tissue packets
dajie's arts&craft pieces

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